Holding on

Oh my goodness, I know I have more pictures with this Little, way more than any of my other Littles. 

I wish I had these moments to do all over again, with all of them, I'd re-capture them all with my camera. Truly,  I sat in swings and went down slides with all of them, I just didn't take pictures. Well, with some I did, but with no outlet to share, they are all just stuck on my computer with 12,000 others. I sat just like this!! I did! Each. One.  Some let me hold them longer than others. 

Each one I sang a different song with. A made up song that rhymes with their name. This one is  "LieghLou, LieghLou, my Emelie Lou, Leigh Leigh, Leigh Leigh, my Emelie Lou. I should have spelled her name Emeleigh. Her name pronounced Em ee  Leigh not Emily. Well, we just call her Em mostly. 

Side note: 

I had no idea that her name was going to be Emelie.

I had three other names chosen. 

Lillie Louise 

Claire Lousie 

Hope Louise 

Well, I thought Lillie, and my Mister thought Emily. It's such a common name I didn't want a common spelling, only having 24 hours to decide and being tired, wasn't quite enough,  so I chose this spelling....the Swedish version of Emily, my father's roots - Emelie. 

Back in track: 

My love is deeper with my Littles, since my Biggest Little left the nest because I know what it means when they leave, take flight and soar... 

It's empty. It's sad, it's not a replaceable hole to fill.

 Just like the number of chairs at the table that are empty when they are gone.  It takes awhile before you stop setting a place for them. 

I am happy for them and glad that they can explore life on their own, but man,  a mother's heart never let's go. 

So, I hug longer and hold dearer. I wish I had more days, more moments, but I'll cherish the ones in front of me right now. 

from me to you w love, Mommer