My Red Badge of Courage Moment

With God all things are possible.

I had a defining moment today. I felt tired and worried this morning because of my daughters pain and fear, but I ended my day with a stronger testimony of God's love for us all.

Just as I was going to succumb to the feelings of worry and exhaustion, I fell asleep with my tears. I recognized this is not who I am, or who I want to be, or the example I wanted to set. I sat up quickly, got out of bed, said a prayer, and repeated, "if God be for us , who can be against us." {Philippians 4:13}

I rushed to the shower knowing my daughter would need me. I wanted to get dressed in the most colorful outfit I could find, just to make a statement that 'said' I choose to be happy. Then, I went to my sewing room and found a purple and red ribbon to make a sash to symbolize a " red badge of courage."

As I was almost finished getting ready my daughter walked in, tears rolling down her cheeks, crumbling to the floor. A friend behind her, caught her as she fell. I hugged her and told her that looking forward in fear is not the same as looking forward with hope. We have to be strong! I was very confident in my speech and her friend was somewhat relieved.  I went to my sewing room, dumped all the ribbon onto the floor until I found a red one. I came back, knelt down next to her, her friend behind her, like a pretzel. I tied the ribbon around her wrist and told her this represents your Heavenly Father, when you are weak, you look at this, you think of him holding your hand. He is with you. Wear this until you get through what you need without the reminder.

Still she wanted to cry. I explained that fear and anxiety is not in tune with the spirit, hope and enduring are. You can't feel hope and fear at the same time, just as you can't have darkness in light.

Repeat after me,  I said, "With God all things are possible." She repeated it weakly. I said, "say it again." "With God all things are possible!" She said it with more conviction. We packed up her things and I took her to her fathers' home where life; work and college, start back up again for her. I hoped to empower her, and we spoke about all the things we are grateful for and how we will get through this. 

When we got to her house we prayed, repeated the scripture, and did a fist bump with her red ribbon wrist and my red badge of courage sash.

Nothing's gonna get us down!! Nothing.   "With God all things are possible!"

From me to my Big Little, Kelsea w Love - Mom