Busy, but making time

May 15,2015

Homemade pizza, because when I'm  this busy, and start to realize I'm over doing it,  I need time to rise, slow down, and do something creative with my Littles. 

  

The month of May always comes and hits hard with overlapping duties with PTA and BSA. No need for 'I told ya so's' , I'm well aware. I have never been a slow and steady, but I usually balance my tasks fairly good. I thought I was prepared for May and really I was until what I had agreed to do in August became a June thing and now my May is a mess.

 Well, I guess I could have said no, but to be quite honest, I really wanted this opportunity...and still do. I love organizing and this challenge I have been given.  I feel it it's a good opportunity to serve, but I think for the first time in a long time, I fed my own ego. I think the adversary knew right where to get me; volunteer more, do more, and have less time to read, ponder and pray. Well, No way, No how. I will not be defeated. I will pick up   my scriptures and learn, it's not too late to restart and take time for Him and  my family. It's so easy to get distracted. Even when we are doing good, there is always a better and even a best. The Lord wants our best, and I recognize that I am at my best when he is with me, when I screw up it is I that am leaving Him behind, not the other way around. 

 So,  I'm trying here, aren't we all? Balancing...

Isn't life a constant re-evaluation of oneself, or is that just me and my crazy mind? I feel that part of me is failing miserably and part of me is taking baby steps to be the best me I can be. What I really want is something inbetween.  Sometimes I just think too much. Maybe that's a problem too.  

from me to you with love,

 Mommer