You're not alone

Took Little Em out to see the ducks & clear my mind. Sometimes after so much going on, I need to decompress. It's part of my ten day, two day cycle. If I just don't stop I will crash. Everyone is different. This is me. 

On the drive to the ducks, I was listening to NPR and a lady was being interviewed. She said, we can often feel lonely and lost in our own family.  This struck my chord, when I try so hard to embrace my own family members, but I do know of what she speaks.  

I have several family members with mental health issues; dealing with depression & anxiety in many forms, from sensory overload to social anxiety.  Having some of these infirmities myself, from time to time. I can understand how living a full and rich life, people can still feel alone and lost. 

It is a lone-ness, that no one can understand and even if you have personally felt it, you can't imagine the extent of another's struggle. Living in a home where those around me deal with this pain has taught me patience, compassion and long suffering. I love deeply because the extra helps. When I don't understand why my child feels a certain way, or what they feel at all, especially in a moment of a panic attack, I just try and love them more. Keep them present and let them know they are loved. 

I do believe this is more common than most people are willing to talk about. I am not ashamed or embarrassed by my humanness or my families either. Heavenly Father has given me much more than I would have asked for, but he has not given me more than I can handle. This also goes the other way, I have not given Him my all and always and he has blessed my life more than I can imagine. 

We are never alone and I will never leave my families side. 

From me to you with love, 

Mommer