No cover up- Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
Day one.
Day two of back to back appointments, and she's still smiling.
Traveling with me on my journey.
I don't do the selfie thing very well.
I took 8 and finally was like whatever.
Inside the doctor's office was a quote...
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.
Vivian Strauss
You can't see it very well, it's in the corner.
I've learned to jump in the puddles of the storms, prayerfully, wholeheartedly and splash.
My whole life, storms seem to be a repeating, one comes in, clears up, sunshine, all is good and then, wham. storms.
Maybe I just have many lessons to learn?
OR maybe I'm doing something wrong??
I like to think it's a little of both.
I know that there is opposition in all things for our growth.
This most recent lesson, a much lesser storm then others I've had, I must acknowledge that, as it only affects my skin, but it has taught me how to love me in my own skin.
Blemished, blistered, masked, dotted, spotted, words, I have given myself, and others have given me.
They all amount to the guise of ugliness. This has been instilled upon me, by the industry of beauty.
That, right there... Makes me feel ugly. Awful. Unworthy.
Well, it used too...
January 16, 2016
I've done a lot of wonderful living, looking just the way I am, but I've hidden a lot too.
I finally decided to get treatment and see if once and for all I could be rid of this mark.
In February I started Clavaris.
February 21, 2016
July 25,2016 clearing up and drying out.
July 29, 2016 sun exposure again. Dermatitis.
BUT!!! 6 months make up free.
No cover up.
Just me!
August 7, 2016 dermatitis
August 16, 2016 clearing up after a process of eliminating everything.
No sun screen which was agitating my skin OR moisturizer, except Vaseline. Nothing else.
Not even soap. Just water and a fresh towel.
September 1, 2016
This was hard at first.
I always covered up my skin.
I was very self conscious.
I wish I never learned to cover up in the first place.
I wish beauty was only found in the eyes.
Who started this cover up thing anyway?
Cleopatra with her red raspberry lip stain??
I wish that I was accepted for who I was from the beginning, even by me.
I'm not sure if I will ever go back to the cover up again,
but then that's easier to say now that things are clearing up.
I do have a deeper appreciation for me, and have grown stronger in my imperfections.
This will pass, hopefully to be a lesson learned and a trial conquered.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
I know that our Heavenly Father only sees the beauty in our hearts.
I hope that from this experience I may be more compassionate to others with ailments and recognize their inner beauty and compliment them.
We don't know the struggles in others, but if we can recognize the struggles in ourselves, we might have a better understanding. This is what I hope to teach to my Littles.
Be kind & smile. Let someone know you love them today.
from me to you with love,
M
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