#becauseof Him, {I try to see what God sees in me}, I try to be a better person.

If you fail in one small area of your life, 
it dosen't  make  you a failure in all the other areas of your life.

This is so true. I used to not want to go anywhere or do anything because of my bad skin. I felt that my bad skin defined me. I felt flawed and missed out on many things in my youth and early adulthood and motherhood. I felt ugly and worthless. I took medication, used all sorts of products, went to the dermatologist, and even cried on my hands and knees to take this "affliction" away form me. {!} Then I felt unworthy of such a miracle because I was not living a perfect life, how could I ask for so much. I realized that I am not my face, I am what is inside and that is what God wants me to see.

My vanity was a weakness, a good way for the adversary to creep in. There is no fear, self centered-ness, unhappiness, or frustration in God. I changed the way I felt about myself, really knowing that I am a child of God and that I have other qualities other than good skin and I need to concentrate on those things not the "bad things".
 

I don't think I am beautiful, but I think, I can see a glimpse of what God sees in me, bad skin and all. My skin doesn't define me anymore. I still care about it and try my best to cover it up, and put my best face forward. After many years of struggling with this, I can look in the mirror, even when I see the blotchy mess, and feel the throbbing pain underneath my skin, and thank Heavenly Father for what I do have, and stop looking at things that don't matter.

 I try to see what God sees in me first. I look in the mirror and smile.

 

...maybe this is how you see me? 

I hope this is how God sees me. {:)}


from me to you w love, M